Not much of a mood to blog about my Phuket trip. It was fun, no doubt but i am just feeling very sian now!
I am soooo free now i am taking afternoon naps which it's something i haven done since ages ago.

The plan after my phuket was, ideally, work as an intern. But since that didnt come true, well i thought i will just settle for a normal job. BUTTTTTTTT now i can't even find a normal admin/customer service job! >:( See, i went to recruit express last month, in the midst of my exams, hoping they will contact me for a job and ideally i can start working on 7th may. However, no calls, no news, just nothing.
I sound like im super desperate for a job :( Actually i just wanna earn extra money to fund my grad trip probably or to fund my new lappy since my existing one is really dying alr :( Tuition is keeping me occupied now. So here i am, setting exams questions for my tutee. :DDDD

heh. For example,

Valerie has 35 tim tams.
Lionel has 6 more tim-tams than Valerie.
How many tim-tams do they have altogether?

HAHHAHAHAHAHA. of course i am not using tim-tams, i think i might just confuse her. :X
oh wells. at least tmr i have a busy day. YAY to busy days :D

Still acting like a pampered kid. seriously?

When will money ever be enough you tell me?
Even when we have more money, we tend to spend more. So, when you have more money on hand, somehow you will still complain that you do not have enough money. 
I can see where you are coming from and all that peer pressure, that 'all my friends have this and that' thingy BUT somehow i still can't approve how you are openly ask for money?! Sounding as if people owe you a living. O.o And that they should rightfully give you more but yet, they are not doing so. 

Well, if you have decided to spend lavishly on food and clothes, then you should just earn that money yourself. 
If not, control your spending, simple as that. 
If parents constantly give their children so much money, in my opinion, the child would be thinking, 'Ah, money comes to me so easily'. He/She won't even be thinking of ways to earn money and wont;t know how to spend their money wisely. Not enough? i can always complain that i don't have enough to spend, have to eat good food and all and there you go! More money delivered to you. I'm saying this in general, and of course i know there are exceptions but still, yeah you get what i mean.

I'm glad kinda kick my bad online shopping habit already. a few years back(prob 2 years?) i'm really hooked onto online shopping and would look through those sprees websites, F21, and participated in quite a few communities such as sgflea ALMOST EVERYDAY. I would be purchasing mainly tops, pants, dresses and would spend at least $200 per month on clothes alone. To a student, i think that's quite a bit already. I will sell some stuff off at the lj communities, but i would either be making a loss(because i bought the clothes at a high price and wear them once or twice and sell them at 40% off?) or i would take that 'profit' to purchase more stuff. Sometimes, i would think to myself, why the hell i bought this top/pants? And at other times, i would get sick of the top really quickly. But i guess it's that desire, that 'need' to buy that drives me. As soon as i got hold of that item, my satisfaction kinda faded which makes me crave for more. 

I kicked this habit only until this year, and my online shopping now would consist of gmarket purchase such as stickers(yes i love stickers:D) or phone accessories which cost less than $5. If i saw a piece i really like online, i would thought through it probably a few days before buying it. But most of the time, by the third day, my interest in that piece would fade. Oh and one more thing, i really hate to camp or snatch or join backorder of any blogshop.(probably those more well-recognized ones) One thing really frustrating is that, for example, if XXX said they will launch at 9pm and by 9:02pm the clothes i want is out of stock. It's really like WTF? Plus all these camping and snatching reminds me of NTU STARS system which i totally abhor. 
It's not that i don't shop now, but i think i spend so much lesser on shopping. The only time i would splurge on clothes is probably when i'm overseas and the clothes are cheap. Like Bangkok!(my annual trip to bkk HAHAH) i would buy $300 worth of clothes that would probably last me for a long time.  :D Cheap and nice clothes, why not? (:

you know how much i wanted to go on this trip with you.
Yet you took advantage of my sense of longing.
I believed you, yet i saw my hopes rising and crashing down again. 
i am now at once, angry yet disappointed in you. 

Sometimes, we are angry, we are upset, 
but you know, 
you do not say things that hurt another...
and say them all over again. 

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